i was saved by grace but destroyed by naivety..

at mikes house...

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 06:47:26 GMT

so im at mikes house sorta being bored and they are playing war.i just lost but in the very end we got into a huge war thingy were it was like a 5 times war IT WAS CRAZZZZZY!

how to take care of a girl...

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 03:33:20 GMT

AlexisOnFire 142: but im sorta running out of money quick
high heavy heart: is 10$
AlexisOnFire 142: and i still need to get kaitlyn a b day present valentines stuffand go out to dinner tomrrow
high heavy heart: i can help with that
high heavy heart: go to the dollar store and get her some spiffy shit they got there
high heavy heart: for her bday
high heavy heart: fuck her for valentines day
high heavy heart: and take her to denny's
high heavy heart: BAM. 20$.
AlexisOnFire 142: hahahahah
AlexisOnFire 142: u are my hero now
high heavy heart: i always was
high heavy heart: but im serious.

thats the kinda stuff that makes your day.

EMERY

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 05:55:20 GMT

EMERY= the most fucking amazing thing i have ever seen in my life!!!pics soon.

wow

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 09:08:28 GMT

i heart kaitlyn like crazyness <333333333333333333.well i dont have much to write about really.today kaitlyn her sister mike and i went out to dennys to get something to eat and i got a milkshake cause im cool.kaitlyns sister got this huuuuge like meal with pancakes and everything and she said she would eat it all but she didnt and it made me sad but she was being very sorta on edge tonight so i think she was on her you know.... but anyways.then we drove around a little and then figured we would just go to kaitlyns house to watch a movie.we ended up watching napolean and i cuddled with kaitlyn<3 and it was awsome and i miss her already.grrrr.well sorry im not writting more but im at mikes house and its like 4 in the morning and hes sleping and i think the typing might be getting annoying.bye byess <333 kaitlyn <333

Kaitlyn is raddest girl ever

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 19:49:40 GMT

first of all, this is Kaitlyn, and im updating Joe's journal for him because he asked me to, and im a nice girlfriend like that. Well let's start off that joe asked me out the other day, and i finally said yes last night. It was a good descision(please dont mind if i spelled that wrong, i cant spell to save my life)
Ok so last night we went to the movies, we saw White Noise, my friend Jen and her boyfriend Richie were there to, it was a pretty good movie but Joe said i made it like 10 times scarier because i screamed pretty loud alot. then we went back to my house and watched a movie, and then i drove him home at like 4am, and he failed to tell me it was supposed to start snowing after midnight so i was stupid and took my moms car and we almost crashed a few times, then on the road to his house we saw a few deer..we tried to stop to take a picture but the snow got into the way of the camera and we didnt get the picture o_0. and i was really tired on the way home, but no one really cares haha. and joe wants me to say how much fun we had when we tried to watch road trip. =X tehehe. joe is singing on the phone right now, what a strange kid.

and i just read this back to him..and he approves..although i could of wrote whatever i want.
id like to write then without telling joe what this says yet that...
I am so happy that i met Joe, and that we got so close so quick. I usually run away from everything thats good for me, especially guys. Ive been hurt to many times in the past and so i was just afraid of commitment, but then all my friends and my horoscope haha, convinced me that Joe is just what i need in my life. If i didnt say yes to joe id just be chasing after another guy that never called when he was supposed to, or acted like he didnt need me. But i found Joe, i made the commitment to be with him and it hink it was one of the best choices of my life. I can't being apart from him i love every second im with him. haha joe just decided to say "my life is horrible when im not with you" awwww. see thats why im with him. i couldnt be happier and i cant wait to see where this takes us.
<3333333333

ok thats all.

wow

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 06:36:00 GMT

WOW today was amazing ..... <3333333

yeah....

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 05:19:30 GMT

so i think i like someone... ok yes i like someone but im too scared of rejection and i dont know what to do about it because i dont know how they feel about me.also i dont want it to turn things wierd if i say something and that would suck even more cause i wouldnt want to ruin a friendship or anyhting like that.it hard since i think about them all the time and they just blow me away with things they say and its just everything i want in someone plus more and im scared to ruin it or blow it just cause im a retard.im not sure how to explain how i feel but thats the best i can do for now.i dont know what to do.i need help. <3

AMAZINGLY AMAZING

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 06:54:26 GMT

i hung out with kaitlyn and her friend tonight and it was awsome and alot of funny stuff happened but im not too sure if i shoudl say it.lol.but anyways yeah i have alot more stuff i could write about but not sure if i should say it cause im not sure if its something everyone needs to read and it probably doesnt matter that much since things always turn out the same for me....well im in a good mood so im going to stay in one for now.nite everyone <3

wow

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 07:04:34 GMT

i have been feeling really lonely lately and its not good.i think too much about everything when i try to sleep and everytime i see someone else together it makes me think whats wrong with me and why dont i have someone...well anyways i think im starting to like someone.im not sure if i should since i dont wanna be hurt anymore cause im sick of it and im scared that if i come out and tell them i will get shot down cause i dont know if the person likes me in that way. well i dont know what to think or do things havent been going to great and there is this crazy amount of tension at my hosue.im waiting for it to snap and all hell to break lose.its so bad im scared to go down stairs or go eat or anything cause i dont wanna be yelled at or anything.so pretty much i live at mikes house all the time but i feel bad that im always there cause im sure he parents dont love me always being around but i apreciate them letting me over all the time cause i dont know what i woudl do if i was stuck in my hsoue all day everyday.im just sick of all the shit.i really want another job so i dont have to be home as much and then they have one less thing to yell at me about.well thing just sorta suck right now and im not sure what to do about alot of stuff and i feel sorta lost and in the dark and being lonely was the last thing i needed.im not really sure what i was trying to say or go with all of this but i felt i needed to write something since i havent updated in a while.also that last update was just messing around incase anyone didnt know.lol byes <333

???????????

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 05:23:46 GMT

i dont know what the fuck is going on.i never thought i would enjoy doing drugs this much.awwwwsome!! I LOVE EVERYONE.....except you....no not you YES YOU!!! YOU KNOW WHO U ARE! hahahah <3

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 06:04:25 GMT

Let this be my act of defiance.
Let this be my refusal to fit in...

HAHAHAHAHA

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 19:45:46 GMT

i have a funny/pathetic stalker who has nothing better to do with her time than post in my LJ and its sorta obvious they cant move on......kinda sad.

FINALLLLLLLLY!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 01:02:56 GMT

im finally getting my lip pierced tomrrow after work.YAYYYYYYYYYYY im very excitted.<3

blah blah blah blah blahhhhhhhh!

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 06:13:56 GMT

so last nigth i satyed over at mikes and we a bunch of poeple came over and they stayed up all night playing halo 2 so i only got about an hour of sleep because mnike wouldnt shut up while he was playing.so i came home around 7 in the morning and then passed out on my bed till about 2:30. so then i woke up went online and talked to some epopel and just sorta hung out most of the day.then jen and i went to go see national treasure which was good btu could have used a sex scene but good anyways.i came home got online and i guess one of my friends meg was like right near us at the movies the whole time which was crazy cause i havent seen her in a while.also i got to talk to kristen today which was amazing since we havent talked inba long long time btu have sent each other some e mails a couple times so that mad me happy.we talked on the phone for a little bit and she told me hwo she was doing and how everything was going and we just sorta had a little talk about each toher.hopefully she is coming to see me on spring break so im happy about that.ummmm yeah thats was about my day in a nut shell.im going to go upstairs now and watch some cowboy bebop and go to bed and then do nothign tomrrow but hopefully ill find something fun to do.goodbye <3

heyy

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 02:17:39 GMT

im at mikes and he admitted to having a small penis....the end

yeah...

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 04:03:29 GMT

so work is going very well lately and im pretty happy with that and i have found sometimes i would rather be there than home or other places.at work i dont have to deal wiht everyting else thats going on and think about all the crap.the people there are awsome and its like when im at work i know what i have to do and i know what not to do and its not complicated and its like this whole other world.im not too sure what im trying to get across with this but i dont know things are confusing lately and work isnt confusing maybe thats it....i dont know.my cousins are coming over on thursday which sucks ass cause i hate them but im trying to get a 12 hour shift on thanksgiving so i dont hvae to deal wiht them for as long of a time.they are only satying over thursday night but i mean i will get home from work and they will be there and just invaiding my room and ahhh they are so annoying and such guilderland kids that i cant stand it.they are pretty much like 98% the kids u see at the mall everyday.so yeah im not oo sure what else is really going on lately.let me think....ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm im not too sure.i may start having new hours from 9-5 mon-fri which would be cool since i would get out earlier and get there an hour before we open to public and i would be on register less which means dont have to worry about selling things as much.im just not sure if i can get rides in at 9 but linda said if theres a problem she would pick me up and bring me to work.shes awsome.well thats about everything new nothing interesting has been going on really its been very normal and average but maybe something crazy will happen soon.grrrrrr.so yeah i guess this is the end.bye byes <3

it was bound to happen....

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 15:20:03 GMT

well as i thought steph was a damn liar like alot of other people i know but unlike most other ones i was fooled for a little while and didnt wanna believe the truth and just blew it off as being paranoid.but whatever its not important anymore and this is actually not hurting me at all.im just sorta insulted and shocked by some of the stuff she said and right now i think shes very pathetic for what she done and said to me and other people that dont deserve that kinda shit from someone.but what can u do but move on.it may take a while but i will do it.......ok i moved on.lol well im going to go over to mikes and we are going to make some damn good pancakes and later on i planed on going out with jen but my brother and everyone is throwing a party later for K DIDDY since its his b day and i cant miss that.so i guess im going to go be social and all the fun stuff that comes along with it.well yesterday i went to jens and it was fun and we hung out for a while and i enjoy being around her alot.so i cashed my paycheck today and that was about all the fun that has happened yet.im going to update later or tomrrow if i can function. <3

"it doesnt matter what you say
You never mattered anyway
Never mattered anyway"-underoath

BLAHHH

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 05:27:45 GMT

So im talking on the phone with jen right now and we are talking about random things.The sapranos is on right now and i can hear people having sex in the background. but anyways i have been working alot lately and its all become routine now so im happy about that.so anyways i felt i should update sinc ei havent in a while.but more later i will tell everything that has been going onlately.bye byes xoxo

i dont know...

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 05:28:59 GMT

...im scared... <3

gzdjjfgh

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 04:27:31 GMT

i got my haircut and its short...in the back...more later

i love steph

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 04:26:27 GMT

so me and are amazing and thats pretty much about it.she got a new car so now we will be able to see each other alot again and be able to go out to places.i cant wait for the alexisonfire concert this thursday and im all excited.i have been working alot lately and i realized its a pretty good job and that the people are pretty damn cool except for like one but i dont work with them like ever so its all good.i cant wait to see steph tomorrow cause shes coming over after she gets out of work and we are going to cuddle and watch some tv and kiss and all that fun stuff.im a bit sleepy right now so im heading off to bed.sorry for the boring post but nothing has really happened.nite.<3 steph <3

sorry everyone

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 01:16:15 GMT

i know i havent updated in a while and havent really commented in anyones journal or anything lately since i havent been home and the whole working stuff so im sorry about that but im going to write alot tonight so if anyone cares they will know whats been going on with me.so...me and steph are now together since the 29th and i have never been this happy with someone ever and i feel this is really somehting thats going to last cause i feel like i really really love her and to be honest i dont think i have ever experienced love before this.well on the 29 steph mike laura and i went to go see SAW which was a wierd ass twisted movie but had an amazing storyline too it and i would reccomend seeing it cause it was really good.so after that mike was freaking out and we all got in the car and played with stephs camera and recorded ourselfs singing MCR in the car which was unfnny and i cant wait to see how it came out.so we then dropped mike off and went and watched a movie and all that fun stuff.steph drove me to work the next morning and yeah i pretty much went to work doing the same stuff as every other day since nothing new relaly happens there.so yeah since then just been working and seeing steph but on saturday night we were all going to a concert party thing at RPI and we ended up getting into an accident like on the highway and did a 360 and hit both barrier things on the sides of the roads.i wasnt wearing my seat belt so i just got tossed around the back seat but steph got hit with the airbags and so did her friend laura who got a fat lip and her eye was a little puffy but we were pretty much alright.steph car got pretty messed up.the glass was all cracked and broke on the frin window and passenger door didnt open or close too good now and hood was maeesed up the side fender was gone and it just wasnt oo good looking but i think nothing reallllly serious was done to the car except for body work and stuff liek that.so after that people stopped who saw the accident and called the police and everyone saw it was an accident and it was filed as a no fault accident cause we werent speeding or anyting and just hydroplained and slipped.so no one got a ticket but steph was very upset about her car since she needs it to get to school and work.so i called my brother up and he picked us all up and we got the car brought to steph house and did some other stuff.i slept over my brothers house that night since i havent seen him in a while and we hung out which was good.the next day we went over to my moms house and i havent seen her in about 6 months and that went alright i mean we were only there for about 45 mins.yeah so then i came home after that and went over to mikes and we hung out a little while and steph called me and we all went out trick or treating for a little while and i was soooooo happy to see her and she was all dressed up and was SO CUTE!!!! <3.yeah so then i went to work on monday came home called steph mike came over and di some HW and then i slept for about 13 hours last night.i got work tomorrow...and hopefully ill see steph soon.so thats about the main things that have been going on lately.i have been pretty tied up with working and i realized how much i enjoy sleeping.lol.well im going to go do nothing and maybe go over to mikes.bye byes <3 steph

ummmm WTF just happened

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 04:01:30 GMT

so this was probably the single most interesting week ever..
1.worked for the first time.
2.n love with steph and we are together now YEAH!!!!
3got in a car accident.

more later

?

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 22:16:35 GMT

"confusion creeps inside me raining doubt."

YAY

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 02:49:28 GMT

tonight was amazing once again.<3